* speakers on *
Just like a year ago..

Today is Special!
It is me & you.. Today is oursEvery step we make
And every moment we share
Make me give you that one look, which says it all..

It is being around you is what I love the most, no matter where you are or what you do
And it is ironic how even when we are together, I would still miss you!

We had our ups and downs, but every step down pushed us a thousand steps up
It is the way you always think about the future in terms of ‘me and you’.. I have never understood the word ‘us’ and what it really meant before I met you.
The way you always and no matter how down I feel, have faith in me.. and the way you bring out the best in me.

It is me enjoying your technology talks, checking the Dick Smith and Harvey Norman with you every time we’re in the mall, and loving every bit of it! It is me loving Apple, MAC, Ipods, biking, ping pong and whatever you enjoy and like.. It is you telling me to check up a new dress while we’re walking, or You planning all our beach outings, and no matter how bad the weather is just because you know I would enjoy it..

It is us becoming closer, together planning a future, sharing interests, and having two laptops while sharing one printer!

It is all the time, affection, emotions.. and making my life here far away from family and friends just like being home

The way you opened my eyes to new things, new ways to enjoy life.. and making me have faith in tomorrow as ‘tomorrow is a better day, because it only gets better’
All the joy you brought into my life
All the smiles and laughter
Make me now more certain
That I am blessed and lucky to have you!
It is you being who you are is what I love the most..
Happy ‘one year’ Anniversary

9/2/2008

This is what happens when you have the wrong combination. PS3 and a beanie bag DO NOT work together. I repeat.. they DO NOT work together. We spent the night trying to clean up the mess, and those small white balls are just horrible. They stick everywhere and anywhere.. !!! You can’t see them, and you can’t get rid of them..

*sigh*

it’s amazing how songs can always bring back a certain memory, they would make you live that moment again and again no matter where you are or who you become. One song would get me back to that cheerful child, sitting with dad in his old white car, going to school every morning.. talking about everything and anything, just to make sure that my sleepy dad would be all awake when he drives back.

Another would just get me back to all the summers we used to spend in the pool all day long.. the burning sun, the strong lovely smell of coconut oil, the french fries and ketchup.. they used to play Fairouz every single morning, teery ya tiyyara teery.. i can still remember the exact words, our laughs and fights on whose jump was more impressive.

There are certain songs that would remind me of the drives we used to take.. me and my two sisters, and the times we used to go the malls.. which became more or less like a habit, even if that meant to go there only for an ice cream or a nice walk!

Others would just get me back in time, where I used to drive with friends, open the windows, and sing loudly.. get all the energy out, and just enjoy.. the louder the better..

I would remember this phase where I was waiting for something to happen, I would spend hours on the computer playing brainless games and listening to music.. I wanted to relax without having to worry about anything.. as if there is nothing in the world that matters anymore. And those songs would get me back to that state of mind, where I go numb..

But our wedding’s first dance song will always be the one that brings joy and happiness to my heart.. it would get me back to that dance floor, with family and friends standing around.. looking and smiling at us.. my mom and sisters’ tearful eyes.. as much as I was scared of that dance, as much as I enjoyed it. Everything turned to black, and it was just me and my hubby.. I memorized the words.. and I was there singing with all my heart.. as I hear it again, it gives me goose bumps. I remember every step, every move, every smile.. as it was only yesterday.

Songs representing pain, love, tears, loss, hatred, hope, faith, and loneliness.. songs reminding us of certain people that were part of our lives… songs that are linked to an event, to a place or a face.. they all still exist, and they still have that same effect regardless of what, where, or how!

The last couple of weeks taught me the real meaning of the word ‘BUSY’. It made me realise that all the previous times when I thought I was busy… that was NOTHING compared to what I’ve been through recently!

I had many of the crazy moments that I won’t forget, but now I know for a fact that planning a wedding is a hard- tough task! needs lots of time and efforts! Especially when it’s done alone.. from A-Z
But Im just one of the people who wants to be part of the whole thing, as I thought this way I’d enjoy it even more.. I even went with a friend to help him in picking up a suit,, I went with cousins to shop for their dresses too ! And as much as it was tiring,, as much as I have enjoyed it all.. every single minute.. that was definitely another part that will be remembered and treasured.

I believe that what’s so stressing about all this mess is dealing with people and trying to make them understand what’s in your mind and do it exactly the way you want.
I had some funny incidents in the past couple of days, things that caused me so much tension but will certainly make me laugh when the wedding is over..
It seems that doing a summerish wedding is so much harder than any other time, as people tend to have a busy schedule and won’t find any time to give you.. even if you’re a bride, this still doesn’t mean that you should have a priority!!
As I decided to get done with the final touches before my hubby’s arrival- I called the photographer two days ago, telling him that I will pass over etc, and his reply was ‘WHY’! just like that.. WHY! I said well maybe because we still didn’t talk about anything yet and that I’d like to do the payment etc.. plus, which is more important, the wedding will be next week! All of this didn’t seem to make a difference.. so he said.. well it’s still too early, you see- in a week people can get to the states and return back!!!

I meet with the florist a week before the wedding and he asks ‘will your wedding be in ***** hotel?’.. I was too shocked to answer!!! one week before the wedding and he still doesn’t seem to get the wedding place right!

I insisted on being the one who drops the invitation cards as I wanted to be part of everything and to experience all.. The feedbacks that I got after this made me so happy,, flying, jumping! they all said one word.. had the same wonderful reaction ‘ELEGANT’- this is what I kept hearing.
Now, I hope that next monday will be all that I wanted and dreamt of .. a reward for my efforts.. I hope it will be a day to remember.. I hope friends (especially those who are coming from all over the world just for the occasion) to enjoy it to the max and feel that it’s worth all the long flying hours .. I hope it will be a day that will be engraved in the minds forever.. my 9th of July 2007!