This is what happens when you have the wrong combination. PS3 and a beanie bag DO NOT work together. I repeat.. they DO NOT work together. We spent the night trying to clean up the mess, and those small white balls are just horrible. They stick everywhere and anywhere.. !!! You can’t see them, and you can’t get rid of them..

*sigh*

Im not one of them. But, those photos are beautiful.. they were taken in the Chinese Festival and from all the RED I have seen, I couldn’t but end up going home with something RED. It’s probably the only RED thing I have!

This is the third time we decide to go to the beach, prepare the beach bag, get my pink big hat which doesn’t fit inside the bag, hide the money and mobile in the magical hidden pocket inside the bag, get the sunglasses, sunblock, and leave the house only to come back in less than ten minutes.

Two weeks ago, the minute we got to the beach it just started to rain!! Rain in the summer .. how ugly is that!

Today was a different case though.. it was a ’sunny’ happy morning, or so it seemed, and we got so excited to make a quick decision and plan our third attempt.. the minute we got out, the weather completely changed.. it was chilly, with no sun at all, and cloudy in an extremely annoying way.

So I thought instead of going there and ruin the day while waiting for the sun to come back or the weather to get better, we should cut it short and go back home, and just change to plan B. I’ve been here for almost a month now, and I haven’t really expected to have such a weather in the summer.. it’s really frustrating to have all the beaches but not being able to go to any because of a bad weather.. and this has been the case for almost a month now! I still haven’t seen any penguins or dolphins… *sigh*

The other day I was chatting with my sister and she was telling me that our grandpa died four years and 6 days ago.. my reaction was REALLY!? And she said how come you don’t remember the date? Not even the year?

It’s then when I realized that I try to block the memory… the saddest memories are the ones which I keep in this black box at the very end of my mind, and whenever something reminds me of anything that’s even close to what hurts, I just block it and push it further..
Im not sure whether it’s good or bad, but I know for a fact that it’s the only way to control my extremely sensitive nature. Does this mean Im able to control my emotions? Or better to say it means that Im scared to let those emotions control me so I try to avoid them as much as I can and avoid getting in a deep depression…

It hurts not to remember those dates, the bitter moments, the painful memories .. but then again what good would happen from remembering them? If you lose someone so dear, then the memory wouldn’t get him back, nor would the broken heart.. and even when I want to remember him, I don’t think of him as sick or weak laying in the hospital’s bed for months.. I blocked that too, long time ago! All I remember now is how strong and healthy he was.. sitting in his favourite corner close to the table with his grandchildren photos’ frames…

I really hope that this black box would hold no more blocked dates or sad memories, I hope that 2008 will be a year with all the happy events that I would want to remember and treasure for years to come..