The other day I had this extremely annoying, difficult to please or deal with- passenger, so I decided to cut it short and act in a way that would cause less mess and trouble .. I planned to nod my head and agree to whatever he says.. just because If I disagree, I’ll get into an endless , crazy argument that would only make me feel mad, bad and in the mood to pick a fight with anyone around just to let it all out… and would get us to nowhere.. really!

He started by asking me the same question that he’s been continuously asking for the past few months.. and this is one of the reasons that made me strongly believe now, that some people should not be helped, or offered any advice.. they will cause nothing but a headache.
He was trying to get his wife into his family points system account,,, I told him that I need her Jordanian passport to do so (because those are the rules) .. but since his wife doesn’t have one.. he just wanted to throw his anger at me..

I was explaning that Im not the one who came up with those rules, if it was up to me I’d add her and the whole neighbourhood.. but he kept on saying how mean they can be not to think of the possibility that someone might get married to a different nationality holder..
I said I understand your point and I really know what you mean .. you’re totally right!
This is when he said .. well it seems that you just want to say anything, just anything, to stop me from talking… now, you’re standing by my side so that I would have nothing to argue about!!!! Again, I tried to remember all the communication skills’ courses I’ve attended, and of all the nice things in the world.. the sea.. the beach.. the sounds of the birds, so that I wouldn’t lose my temper.

Then he just went on and on talking about it.. his wife, children.. and everything that comes to his mind -seems like he wants to talk but there’s no one to listen so he said.. oh why not! I can talk now about my personal issues.. and as I seriously had so many things to do, I couldn’t think of anything else to say but .. aha, yeah, aha.. then the bomb got exploded when he said… oh now it seems you’re not even in the mood to listen to what I say.. not in the mood at all..

Of course Im not in the mood to listen to what you say! Im not here to listen to your family stories.. nor to your life problmes… !

To think of that now, I won’t be taking it from anyone anymore.. Im NOT EDGY!!! So stop saying that .. one who handles this shit almost everyday should be considered anything but that..

*sigh*

Work

I will give you a summary of how some- what’s supposed to be called ‘respectable international organisations’ or if I want to clarify and be more specified local unqualified managers working in such organisations deal with a loyal employee if he is to leave because of personal uncontrollable circumstances.

They would handle it MEANLY! This is the best way to describe it.

I wonder in what law is it mentioned that an employee should write his resignation 3 months before the real resigning?!!! How bad would this affect him emotionally!

And how on earth is it possible to employ a person before one leaves to fill his position and take responsibility of his duties when he’s still there!!!??
How is it possible to have someone physically sharing your desk, computer and phone for 3 whole months?!!

And how can they allow themselves to be as low as one can possibly imagine to honor a workaholic empolyee after 3 whole years of blind loyalty and hard work before leaving in such a lousy way!? This is the memory that he will be taking with him.. a sickening memory!

Is it my fault that I’ve been clear and honest, or ’stupid’ as I see it now to tell them the whole story and inform them with everything so that they will be able to have enough time to train someone instead of having a huge gap after I leave!!!?

I regret it terribly.. they should be awarded with ‘a one month notice’ ONLY, this is what they will be getting from me!! a one month notice, nothing more… ! not even a day earlier…! This is what they deserve.. If they think they’re smart enough knowing the law.. then Im smarter to teach them what the real law says,,, starting from the basics.. the employee’s rights and obligations,,, they seem to understand quite well what’s the obligations but have no clue about or pretend to be lacking knowledge when it comes to the rights!

Im just so furious ! Being unappreciated is the worst feeling in the world.. and I’ve been feeling this way for two days now.. BUT it’s ok, Im enjoying the game,,, though watch out.. I can be as agressive as hell when fighting for my rights!!!

Work

This week, we had a dinner at one of the most delicious restaurants in Amman, the food was too yummie that even with the existance of our Area German Manager and the serious business atmosphere and with the fact that I was sitting next to him (this is after him telling me, you can sit next to me -I don’t bite, which was EXACTLY his same sentence to me a year ago) ,

I was too relaxed and enjoying every single bite.

The fillet veal was a true delight, something I need to do again sometime soon.
This business meeting was the best ever, I talked and talked and discussed all the issues that bothered me for two years now. Maybe because Im leaving soon, I didn’t really care.
But well I was shocked that I left a really nice impression.

When saying our goodbyes, I was speechless to hear him telling me ‘Stay as nice as you are, I won’t forget what you said tonight, and I promise i’ll do my best’.

That sentence made me astonished!
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I didn’t really expect things to happen this fast, but well, it did.. I have always shared this with my friends, my wish to have a quick engagement and wedding.
And it’s happening!

If you’re with the right person then why to wait!! A year would be more than enough for you to make a serious move.. why? Because it’ doesn’t need exlpanations! You can spend 10 years or even more with someone then discover that he’s not the one, and you can be with someone who everyone around you loves- to discover later on that he happens to betray all the people including you.
What makes the real difference is -your inner deep feelings, and your senses. Those don’t lie…
just listen to all the voices in your head!

Time is irrelevant. What really matters is the spark, mutual respect, understanding, and for you both to share the same ambitions, goals and dreams. Those are things-if not found- can destroy any relationship. And it’s what makes love grows… real love… true love… (yes, like the one in movies)

Tomorrow is a big day for me and a real turning point, I’ll be Mrs Faris Uraidi. Im too excited. Heared many girls talking about how hard it is, but I feel so relaxed and peaceful.
Im expecting to get a little nervous though, but it all depends on ‘T’. So we’ll wait and see… it’s funny because when we’re together we don’t stop laughing, and when we have something serious -like family formalities- it feels a little bit weird and awkward.

Time flies. This week was hectic, as I couldn’t sleep, part of it was from the excitement I guess, but the big part was because we have so many things to do in a very short time.
But this is what I call the best, most fun ‘3aj’a’ -fuss- anyone can have.

So next time I will be blogging, it will be with a ring in my finger with my beloved’s name engraved on it… umm wonder how would that feel…!

Work

I had the longest, most stressful, most annoying, extremely weird, most actionful, very surpring and shocking, most eventful day ever!

It all started at work, and it happens so often that when you start a day with an unpleasant event, you just say… if it starts like this then it will only get worse… all the signs are there for a bad day!

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I had a problem with a visa card with one of the banks, I was promised to get one and asked to cancel the old one.. and after I cancelled my old one and insisted on that, ignoring all the attempts the lady at the bank made trying to convince me to keep it at least till march… I called my new bank and they simply told me that my request is rejected! What! Rejected???
But I already cancelled my old visa… damn, now I have to start all over again with all the stupid papers and requirements they ask to get a new one!

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The guy who cleans our office decided to throw my jacket when I was in the bathroom -accidently- on the wet dirty floor… and since I have a BIG issue with cleanliness plus this wasn’t the first time for him to do such a thing… I was extremely mad and was about to tell him that next time i’ll make sure to wear my jacket to the bathroom when he’s there! … !

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My colleague got some REALLY SERIOUS THREATS- and had to report them to the police! I really wonder how stupid can some people be to think that we own the company! We’re employees for God’s sake… we follow rules we don’t invent them..!
This made me think how dangerous it is to deal with such mentalities… and now i know for a fact that everytime im parking my car, I have to wait for someone to come so as not to be in the elevator alone early in the mornings… or not to go down to the -2 alone after work when it’s late and dark!

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I had things in my car that I needed to drop off… so I drove all the way and ended up going back home with them still in the car making all the ugly noises while driving on the nice- well fixed streets… just because I forgot!

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The most shocking, and truely dreadful phone call I got today was from a friend who told me that our close friend’s dad (who’s also my dad’s friend) has passed away!!!
May God bless his soul and provide courage to -her and her family- to bear their irreperable loss with fortitude. I am speechless!

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The end of my day wasn’t any better, as I was in my favorite ice cream place, I’ve seen someone who…. someone who… well I am speechless again.. I’d rather not continue… !!!

I’d better go to sleep! Hoping for a better or at least normal tomorrow!

Can I at least have a peaceful sleep for a change?!!!! Well,,,ummm,,, just wondering…!

Work

Now that we’re getting close to the 31st of December… a new year means to me more stress at work than anything else.. so at a time when most people would be getting ready to party and getting all the plans settled for the great event,,, I’d be stressed out… freaked out… and wanting this year to end as fast as possible… to get over with it and with all the accounting problems…

One thing I hate about being responsible for the bank reports is the fact that i cant take any days off in the end of December… everything has to be closed at the 31st… all the invoices should be paid, and the reports sent by DHL to CAI.

And what is so frustrating is when the fax decides not to work for two days … or to be more accurate the lines to CAI are down… why? i have no clue… they (the telecommunication company) said that they also don’t know what’s the problem …
For two days now i have more than 10 papers to be faxed (URGENTLY), 15 e-mails sent to say that this is URGENT.. sorry for the rush… etc. And the last e-mail that was totally ignored by me.. can you go for a bookshop where you can fax them to us… well NO!!!! Absoloutely NO! because when im done with work, it means im done… I don’t want to take anything back with me, I don’t want to spend another minute doing things for work… especially when i feel we’re treated like nothing but machines… robots! And with ON, OFF buttons.
I spent more than 2 hours next to this stupid fax machine, getting 30 reports saying Negative, that I got to a point where I dont’ want to deal with it for another month at least…

Yesterday I was in my jacket… wearing my scarf and gloves ,,, when 2 passengers decided that 5 pm is the right time for them to come and ask all the silly questions not knowing that 5 pm for me means 9 hours of continuous work and frustration… so they just see the look on my face and the attitude yet they decide to keep on… with the slowest pauses and the longest stories… ummm I am a senator so can you check why am I not getting an empty seat next to me when I fly… well why on earth can’t you ask for an empty seat on the check-in!!!???

And when all of a sudden they discover that our network is down and we’ve been using the backup for I dunno how many weeks, who suggested that I would be responsible to take all the calls from CAI, Batelco and Germany when I have no idea how to deal with all the red, white, yellow wires and big machines in the server closet!

Anyway I really hope this year will end with the minimum stress… though so far, Im afraid all the signs show otherwise….!! Hoping for the best… !

Work